Monday, November 24, 2008
It took me a while to get it, but I found out how life works [again].
Life will give you a present.
1]You can open it + taking the opportunity
1.1] It may be something good + opportunity being in your favor
1.11] It may be meant for you + and it really is
1.12] It may be meant for someone else + opportunity lasted awhile
1.13] It may not be meant for anyone + something no one can achieve
1.14] It may be meant for everybody + something every one can
1.2] It may be something bad + opportunity not in your favor
1.21] It may be meant for you + and that's bad luck
1.22] It may be meant for someone else + saved at a price
1.23] It may not be meant for anyone + it hurts, but not so much
1.24] It may be meant for everybody + pain is not really shared
1.3] It may not be anything at all + an opportunity faked
2]You can just hold on to it + preserving an opportunity
2.1] You can wonder about it + but it can never go higher or lower
2.2] You can destroy it + and miss a chance at pain and joy
3]You can throw it away + where it might come back
4]You can give someone else + because the opener might be the pained
However, simply
I just think life gives you something so that you can throw it away or it can be stolen from you.
Everytime life lets you smile, it snatches it away sooner or later
And then when it comes to crying, I can't smile after that even if I know life will take my sorrows from me, because as long as I smile, I will cry, and as long as I cry, I will cry again.
But philosophy is kinda nicer on the nerves than regret. At least it happened. At least it was tried, even if it was kinda bad. At least, I get a chance to smile again, depressingly even if I will cry.
But a smile is a smile. No matter what the philosophy, that's all I'd like to think that matters.
Wakarimasen; posted at 2:25 AM
Saturday, November 15, 2008
What, would constitute as a friend? Or any degree of friendship for that matter?
Would it be that that does everything upon request?
Or is it being there to communicate whenever whyever?
Perhaps it's the tendency to frequently bump into each other.
Could it be simply the empty silent presence that precedes proximity?
Are friends there because you can call upon them and they'll do what you ask? Simply because they are there, they are easier targets, and more or less at any rate a higher chance for obligation?
Is it because you can be your true self, criticizing many things, being picky and bossy, and yet they still retaliate in a nice-manner?
Are friends there, because you want to get away from others? Less meaningful, boring, non-entertaining, quirky strange others? Or just bored of loneliness?
Is it because you need an identity? A place where you have something that is of value, you talk of value to others, be it games, academics, events and happenings?
Would it be for meaningless? Just to challenge what I write, just being friends to disprove something else? A quote that people paste on you that you are always friendless?
Can it be materialistic or mental support? Money, fame, "I hang around popular kid", emotional, physical contact, to follow, to lead. Which would it be?
To say, friends can be anything a person view it to be.
For me, friends somewhat mean the silent theory. The silent theory, to me, is the mute of a law that exist. If a friend acts leader-like and cool, and you ask him why? Would the reason satisfy you? Would it be a psychological backfire?
For me, there are people I apply the silent theory on. There are people who I hold no on-current-as-going value to them, but they are there when occasionally I get stuck with them and start outsourcing. We both have no actual value to each other, but we slack together sometimes, just for fun, quiet and stoic, a bit of word here and there, but it's just for the presence.
Do friends impose on each other? Should they? Should friends let go of incidents quickly? Or should grudges be held? Where does trust come in? How serious should a trust be?
Whatever that constitutes a friend, it will constitute in three ways. It will consist of the past principals that was created upon friendship and initial slacking together. It will consist of the now principals, the events that occur and continue to link to future events. And it will consist of the duel-affinity, the difference in principals each hold against another, where differences and similarities in views and opinions craft a path.
Fortunately, I have a friend that will see no worth in this post and we'll kick up a storm about heated debates over nothing.
Sometimes, I think what constitutes a friend is the ability to make your nothing into their something that you can say is part of my created something as well.
Sometimes I just wished they would shut up.
Wakarimasen; posted at 1:24 PM