Saturday, August 30, 2008
In any bond, it is
conditioned
conditional
unconditioned
and it's freakying complycated
Wakarimasen; posted at 5:30 AM
Thursday, August 21, 2008
To me, realities come in a package.
Fundamental Reality
Intangible Reality
Instantaneous Reality
Imperfection Reality
Fundamental Reality consist of the environment and social construction that we live in. It is the true bias, unfair, stereotypical unfortunate reality where we know is perfectly balanced but just not. It is the everyday life we live in.
Intangible Reality is the absorption of oneself into a reality that does not actually, or nigh plausible to exist. Thoughts such as hitting the jackpot multiple times in a row, falling in love with the dream partner who suddenly is one's new neighbor, realization that one actually is the heir to some extreme wealth, occurring in an accident that leaves one tremendously smart, all these are intangible realities that are basically daydreams which turn real should we be unable to distinguish from such.
Instantaneous Reality is the same as intangible reality, only in that it is for a short amount of time, usually brief of a couple of minutes and not lasting overnight. The difference is that prerequisites occur and it looks as if life could change for the better, such as gaining knowledge of maybe there's a desired person who "coincidentally" is in love with oneself. Unrealistic gains such as acceptance into a clique one has always wanted or suddenly gains the center of attention. Such instantaneous reality persist never long, but these are those that show prerequisite, and possibly might happen.
Imperfect Reality is the achievement of a tangible reality, one that is actually able to gain, such as an extremely highly-ranked job or some obscure job that many are unable to even figure out how to apply for. It is basically the "dream" that people are often driven to seek.
One must taste all the four realities in order to acknowledge and understand why one should not fall into whichever.
As of the moment, instantaneous realities are killing me. Learning to ignore as such is freaking hard.
Wakarimasen; posted at 5:44 AM
Monday, August 18, 2008
Studied like what, 10 hours from 9pm to 7am. Going home though, it's interesting to appreciate the little details morning gives. [self-actualization requirement, fresh appreciation of the world]
I love how that the morning evolves from darkness, breaking from the dawn into the afternoon scenery that we're more familiar with. The students that criss-cross the walks of life, each of which once were what I'd had been. On the bus, crowding like a Singaporean community [cultural worldview interest due to terror management theory. ignition for greater cultural interest and defense due to mortality salience] you see people all having the morning-deadness that I'd had once, back years. Also, how am I not to feel a sense of warmth when I see a guy and girl both students together? Sending people to school, a luxury I never had but I offered. As the bus jerks the girl holds onto the guy for support. At least he didn't sucuumb to impetus. Guys should be stable for girls to hold on. I offered an old lady a seat, got refused but I had to offer. Didn't feel like offering initially, but decided to later anyhow. Didn't like regretting situations.
Of which, random send message replied 1.5 days later
Walking home, getting my feet wet in the dew of the grasses in the shortcut I like to use, I came across this taxi idle. Shocked was I when it revved up just as I walked past! Sleep deprivation gave me a slight euphoria, but yet as I sleep I sleep only for about four hours before I am wide awake writing this blog.
Wakarimasen; posted at 8:53 PM
Sunday, August 10, 2008
I guess in the world we live in, it is a very interesting circle btw, that we strive to be like everyone, and we shape everyone.
Like you know how people wanna be like others, or not be like others, and how this is influenced by the world and that we are the world?
For me as a character, I am not always focused, but often or not when I think, I try to make decisions, fix on it, and then see what that influence it. Decisions not based on others, but still seeing what are the factors.
It is hard though, to do that. Do you carry on because the other is okay? Do you stop because the other doesn't want to?
Making sound decisions and correct ones has nothing to do with choices. It's how that just doing because the other okay kinda brings a person into what I call a fail-proof individual.
You go along only when so does everyone.
I am like that at times, but on the average, I can say less than others. I make choices, like how I want to be honoured with Argent Dawn or Thorium Brotherhood despite later knowing that it doesn't serve any purpose at all. All these, shows that how the environment is affecting a person.
That's why, sometimes we feel like being everybody, doing the choices a collective says so, but for me, I just like to be somebody, someone that has it's distinct values and (usually) makes no sense at all when I pick the choices other people are befuddled at. Or like in a certain case, everyone is befuddled at.
I am me, I am Idiot. I am proud of it. Well, who else'd be proud of a personality I made except myself?
Oh, there's the mirror.
Wakarimasen; posted at 12:54 AM
Monday, August 4, 2008
I think I'm damn boring. I only get shirts from giordano for designing.
Atm, drawn on 2 shirts. It looks pretty neat. Shall hafta figure out anything nicer to draw thou.
Shall draw on more shirts! And I shall need to find someone to study with!
Wakarimasen; posted at 9:10 AM
Sunday, August 3, 2008
I have 2 friends who are born on august 1st.
I msged them happy birthday.
YewChuen replies
well, anytime u feel like losin u can come to me. Im rdy when u are man and thanks
Markus replies
Lol! Its ok man. Thanks. And the bash,you can bash me. I dont mind a pussy punching me.
I swear, these two crack me up and it ain't even my birthday.
It's still comforting to know nostalgically, people haven't changed that much, or at least the relationship between. I figured both'd grown up, but hecks, old days are old days.
When you set your backward though, will the forward ever become the new backward?
Wakarimasen; posted at 8:35 AM
I shall draw more shirts!
Yes I shall draw more!
And I shall go and buy about 5 more shirts, maybe 10, and then go experiment.
And on about 5 shirts, I shall draw
[ I am Idiot ]
on the front, and on the back I shall draw the date. And, I shall wear everyday to school, except friday, a shirt corresponding. Most probably this can take place by wednesday.
Idiot stands for
Inventive
Dumbless
Inventive
Optimism
2kewl
and if you don't get 3 of the technicalities inside, nvm.
Wakarimasen; posted at 6:16 AM