Maybe particularly it is how the things are occurring, that what I feel now is strangely the young kid I felt back in secondary school.
Random.
Stranger.
No previous background connection.
Just there.
When I think about it, a true blue authentic scenario, it just while seems extremely challenging, feels rathered, feels supposeded, instead of an option over what I have now.
Why... I don't understand at all. Maybe I am a neighborhood kid. I don't fit with the upper-classed events. The neighborhooded ones just seem nice to me. The walks, the morning, the bleary eyes and fading suns. The urbanised countryside I like, I love, I don't want to get out off.
Maybe it's time to shoo certain events from my life. I guess as long as it is optional it's okay.