I forgot. I forgot a lot of things I said. I forgot a lot of things I said I told myself.
#1 I myself is to blame
#2 Incorporate and change my beliefs whenever the situation calls for it
I am inflicting upon myself the breaking of both rules.
I stopped blogging for a reason. It was to stop thinking about the constant change I was going through and just live life as it is, not being able to immortalize or remember the past if which I fall back on undoes what I have tried.
Change is everywhere and it is continuous. At first I started to think, and then eventually overthink. For now, I've reached that end of the line. Thinking about thinking. I pondered over it countless of times, and this time, I shall just stop thinking.
I have to stop being the small boy I am. Stop being the one who got upset over trivial matters and ignored the big ones that everyone was worried about. Stop trying to be different and act as if I am from a different class, different world from everyone. Stop having that thought that I am special, unique, for out there, surely there would be hundreds just like me. I have to start solving problems, doing well, and stop waiting. No more hesitation, no more confusion. People live their own lives, they do not wait for me. I have to keep up with the changes, the times. I have to start making the first move, keep going headstrong deep into life itself.
I must start acting, and this regards the social model as well. No more should I think about problematic things when I could be it. Just live and go forward. Stepping back helps, but the better walk forward knowing what to do already.
Situation changes, change along with it. No longer should anything to be of my type.
If I don't keep up, then I got to get faster so I can be on par. Never a step forward, never a step backward, remain in synch, incorporate schedules into the world's time and be part of the world.
In short. I have to stop thinking why things work and how it works and why it should or shouldn't work or whether I can make it or not work. I have to start doing, progressing, working, keeping up and not falling back, and figure out all those theories later.
Quitting blogging. you take a step forward because a lot of steps together is called running.